Up or Down?

I'm crawling down
Or maybe its up
All I know is that the flesh of my hands
Has been sacrificed to the altar of this wall

There is a weight
Strapped inside of me
I don't remember putting it there
Must have been sedated for the surgery

How come my, emotions
How come my, compulsions
How come my, Leanan Sidhe

HAS TAKEN ME

WHY! Can't you leave me alone
WHY! Do you find me alone
WHY! can't you come when I'm ready to leave this place

How come you never visit me
When my sadness seems to flee
How come we never share a meal
When I'm grinning ear to ear

Is it your fault
That I'm so Caught
Is it your fault
That my hands are bleeding

WHY! Can't you leave me alone
WHY! Do you find me alone
WHY! can't you come when I'm ready to leave this place

Which way is up(which was is down)
Which way is up(which was is down)
Which way is up(which was is down)
Which way is up(which was is down)

When is an Angel going to save me
Lord knows that I can't save myself
Lord know that I'm stuck in this hell
I'm dying, from trying

All I want is a  place to sleep

I'm holding on
To this wall
Trying not
To drop and fall

I need a space to breath
I need a face to see
Why is is to hard to see how much is troubling me